Well Needed Weekend

The weekend of Mom's "accident", Dave and I went to Salt Lake with Lee, Janelle, Kailtynn and Madison. We would have stayed home, but already had a hotel room reserved and didn't want to cancel it.  They wanted to share a room, but we decided it wasn't a good idea AT ALL, so got a room 4 doors down the hall from them. When we got to Salt Lake, we checked in, got settled in and then met in our room to decide on what we all wanted to do next.  After much delliberation, we all decided to head to Temple Square and then get some dinner. Because we all couldn't fit in one vehicle, Dave and I took the Sonoma and they took their car. Kaitlynn insisted on riding with us, so her parents let her. When we got to Temple Square, we met up with some sister missionaries who gave us a tour of the church on the grounds, the Tabernacle and of course, the Christus.  When we got to the Christus,  as everyone else was listening to the presentation, I sat there, reflecting. I thought about the importance of the Gospel in my life, and how it's effected me.  I looked at the Christus and thought about the sacrifice that Jesus made for us all in the name of love, how he took all our sins upon him. I looked at my Eternal Companion, and thought of the road we traveled together thus far, how we've hit quite a few bumps along the way, but have stayed true and faithful to each other.  Sitting there, I realized I couldn't love him any more than I already do, that I couldn't live or survive without him.
   By this time, Kaitlynn came up and sat next to me, looking down on her, I realized that though I don't have children of my own, and struggle with that, I've been blessed by the children that are in my life. I thought of the many times I've been sad, how the night my mother was attacked by the dogs, while I was cleaning the blood off the floor, crying, Kaitlynn began to cry for me, and I will never forget the look in those blue eyes when she looked at me and said "Don't be sad Jessata, it's otay." Though her mother didn't know if she should've been near me at the time of my grief, Kaitlynn stood there, hugging me and trying to be a big girl and comfort me. I began to think about my neices and nephews, how they're all excited to see me, how the ones on Dave's side maul me and shadow me whenever I visit, and how Tucker seeks me out whenever he comes over.  Thinking about all this made me yearn even more to have children of my own, so as I sat there, I said a little prayer in my heart for guidance on the subject, for understanding and help to accept things.
  The rest of the weekend was interesting to say the least. Kaitlynn had to ride with us everytime we left the hotel or went somewhere, everyone got along and enjoyed themselves. Though we were sad to leave Salt Lake, it was good to get back home and pick up slack around the house. It was a well needed trip for Dave and I, and we plan on going back in the near future.