Done!

As you all know, I've been working on an afghan for Tucker. Marsh chose the colors, and the way they go in the afghan, it's my first REAL project, and I'm okay with how it turned out. I know I can do better if I practice, so we'll see how things go in the future.
I'm always worried about my work, how people really think about it. I know I'm very critical of my work, and more often than not, I feel like I've not done good enough. With this afghan, I'm worried it wasn't done enough to stay together. I guess we'll have to see, maybe fix it as they go if I need to.
So we've heard that Tucker could come any day now. Emily is beginning to lose her "plug", and is already dialated a centimeter. I will definately keep everyone posted.

Lazy Day?

Today we got Kaitlynn late. When she got here, we finished watching "Bob the Butler" and then got ready to wander through COSTCO and to the bank. COSTCO is doing mega demos from now until Saturday to kick off the Super Bowl. We had a feast, then headed home so Kaitlynn could take a nap. While she was sleeping, we decided to clean our room, and work a little on cleaning up the office so Dave can get ready to move home to work.
This is what our bed currently looks like, if it's not cleaned off before we jump into bed, we'll be sleeping in the family room. YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!
This is what his office currently looks like. Really all he has to do is set the desk up, bring the computer home when it's ready, hook up the phone line, and get himself a chair. I still refuse to bother him when he comes home.
Our day ended with Dinner and a movie with the Chaney family, then a quiet walk through Wal-Mart for a few things. Right now, Dave is tending to the dogs and cats, then it's off to bed, if we can find it.

Congratulations!

Well, this evening, Heather and Charles Monroe Larimer (Chas) got married. I am happy for her, her in-laws seem pretty friendly, and it was a good, small and short ceremony. Dave took a video of it, but it's not working so here are a few photos instead. Enjoy and Congrats Chas and Heather!

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.

Well, we've been getting snow again. Today it's been snowing pretty good, not the flakes that are big and beautiful, but enough to freeze the road. Tonight Dad and I picked Janelle and Kaitlynn up and took them home. They were involved in a car accident but are all ok. Here are some pictures that I took at the scene with my phone. Funniest part of the whole thing is Kaitlynn's concern for the car, she kept saying "Car, hurt."

The Verdict

So today I went to the Urologist. I spoke with him for a little bit, then he showed me the CT scan that was taken when I went to the ER. He didn't find a Kidney stone in my kidneys, but he did confirm that my tube connecting from the Kidney to the bladder is swollen. He's not totally sure if it is a Kidney stone, but there's definately something there.
I was given two options, I could wait it out for another 3-4 weeks, or I could have another CT Scan and see what he can find. I opted to wait, was given some Flomax and another prescription for pain pills. I was also given my new best friend, a larger "pee filter" that looks like a funnel with a screen at the bottom.
I don't have to really watch what I eat, and I just have to deal with whatever is bothering my body. Aside from peeing in a filter all the time, I think I can handle this. I will keep everyone posted as things go, right now, I've got some pain meds on board and 2 kiddos to tend to. Have a good evening.

A Good Day

Today I got Kaitlynn at a quarter to 6. Instead of going back to bed, she stayed up until my mother left for work, and then we went downstairs and bothered Dave until he got up and we watched TV. Later in the morning, Marsh, Emily and Dad brought Nellie and her bedding to us so we can watch her while they went to Utah.
For the most part, Nellie did good just laying on the floor in my room, relaxing and taking a break from all the dogs. Kaitlynn finally fell asleep, and slept until 2. I then rinsed Nellie's wounds with the help of Kaitlynn and Dave, then gave Kaitlynn a bath. After lunch, we played for a while, and then gave Nellie LOTS of attention.
Dave and I have been spending some time together tonight, we didn't do much, but it's been time together. As I was shopping at ROSS's, I got a phone call from Heather, her and Chas have decided to get married Monday, Jan. 26th in Idaho Falls. I'm a little upset it's really short notice, but at least she's happy. Dave isn't sure if he can get it off, but he's going to try, and Marsh and Emily are planning on going up there as well.
I really hope they are as good together as they appear to be, that they can prove everyone who doubts them wrong. Heather's such a wonderful person when she wants to be, and she deserves to be happy. Chas makes Heather happy, helps balance her out so-to-speak, and really seems to be family oriented. It's late, and I'm going to Wii with my husband for a little bit before bed. Night all.

My One Wish

This entry was triggered by the frequency of people looking at Grandma's house. I won't lie, I want more than anything to keep it in the family, and think it'd be the perfect home for Dave and I. Plenty of room for all our animals, a way to pay our mortgage with the basement appartment, and it's chalk full of sentimental value for me.
If I could be granted one wish this year, it would be that somebody would come in, buy Grandma's house and let us rent it until we can buy it from them, or do a rent to own. I don't want to see some strangers living there, it's not right. I won't lie, I pray that nobody buys it, that it stays on the market until I can find a way to get it, Dad doesn't like that idea, but for once, I'm being selfish. I just pray for a miracle, that someday I can catch a break, and be able to live in that house.

Each man is a hero and an oracle to somebody

Lately I've been thinking about my first serious boyfriend. I recently found out that he's in the middle of changing genders, and have been struggeling with my feelings about the situation. When he first told me his decision, I was shocked as it goes against everything the church teaches. I told him that I didn't understand why he felt he needed to do this, and that I don't agree with it nor do I support it, but that I'd be here as a friend if he needed one.
I know that is a bit contradicting, but I've known this guy for seventeen years, and I can't turn my back on him just because he feels he needs to do this. The reason I've been thinking about him a lot is because his ex-wife has decided to break custody agreements, and won't let him see his son. He's really hurting and has contemplated suicide lately.
Ever since I can remember, I've been a shoulder that he can lean on, and he's been leaning pretty hard lately. Because he's been banned from seeing his son, and with the lifestyle changes he's making, he's been contemplating taking his own life. He doesn't know where he fits in the world, and feels all alone. Not only did I suggest talking to a shrink, and maybe see about anti-depressants (yes, sometimes they're needed), but I made him promise that when he gets those thoughts, to either call me, think about his son and if he really wants to be that selfish to leave him behind, or both.
Some say I'm crazy for being there for him, but it doesn't matter. He knows that I don't agree with his decision, that I can't bring myself to calling him by his female name, or that I still see him as the boy I fell in love with so many years ago, who shattered my heart and taught me how to forgive. We've got a bond between us that Dave understands and accepts. (or so he says) From what I've seen and heard, this person doesn't really have anyone else who cares for his well-being.
I don't really know the purpose of this post, I guess it's just to get my thoughts about my ex off my chest. Don't get me wrong, I really care about him, but he's not an obsession, nor do I have feelings for him like I use to. He's a friend, and right now he's a friend in need. I hope I can convince him to get help, and that everything works out for him.

Happy STINKIN Birthday to me.....

Ok, so contrary to the title of this blog, though I had some ups and downs, my birthday was pretty good. I bought dinner for everyone, got a few good cards from Mom and Dad, Dave bought me my purse, birthday wishes from other family members, and I ended the night really high on Morphine's "Big Brother". Yes, yours truely ended up in the ER last night for a few hours, and I was MISERABLE.
Why was I there do you ask??? Shortly after 8pm, when all my guests went home for the night, I began getting sharp, unbearable pains in my right side that went from front to back, and got so intense that I began throwing everything, even water, up. Dave thought it could be indigestion, I told him it wasn't, that it was much worse and I thought I needed to see a doctor. He immediately got the Van warming up, got me in it, and we headed off to the ER. I began throwing up on my way there (thank goodness I had some GOOD Gold Canyon Candle bags!) because the pain began getting worse, and by the time I got there, I felt sooooo weak and hurt soooo bad.
I tossed the barf bag in the trash as we entered the ER, and while I was checking in, I had to sit down. The receptionist knew I was in extreme agony, hurried me through admittance, then another barf bag later, I was escorted back. Dave was a trooper the whole time. Because the pain was abdominal, they asked for a urine sample. Now I know EVERYONE just loves to pee in a cup, but the most I could do was MAYBE 10 drops. This being a bad result, they hooked me up to an IV, and then added anti-vomit meds, and my new favorite, Morphine's Big Brother. (I can't remember the name of it as I was pretty dang messed up.)
Aside from the numerous MASSIVE needle STABS (everytime she poked me the vein either collapsed or moved.), the constant barfing (went through 3 barf bags while I was there.) and always freezing, I was a happy camper with drugs on board. Shortly after my drugs kicked in, I got drowzy and couldn't keep my eyes open. After a while, they woke me up to do a cat scan, during this scan, I kept drifting in and out of concienceness. I was supposed to take a deep breath and hold it while the scan was running, then a calm soothing woman's voice would tell me to exhale. Because how soothing she was, I don't know how many times this was done, her voice put me back to sleep. I barely remember being placed back in my room, and asking for more blankets. By this time, the vomiting quit (there wasn't much left to come back up.) along with the dry heaves. I asked for a little more drugs as the pain was coming back a little more intense-that's the last thing I remember.
I would BARELY wake up when the doc came in to check on me, can't remember what was said but I was answering her questions. She told me I was not pregnant (DUH, I could have told her that.) but said that I have a kidney stone. Yippee, more peeing in a cup until the stone passes, lucky me. Still being pretty drunk, they gave me a cup with a screen at the bottom to pee in until I pass the stone, a prescription for pain meds, and one to stop the barfing. I was told to drink LOTS of fluids, and talk to a urologist next week. LUCKY ME!!!
I drank a bottle of orange juice when I got home, and it took seconds before I was out. This morning, I am a little sore. (Guess the good stuff is wearing off!) and peed in my little cup-what a challenge. My goal today is to drink NOTHING but water, and take it easy on things I eat. I'm still a bit hung over but it's good. Today when they open, I'm going to get my prescriptions filled at COSTCO, and pick up more water. I will keep everyone posted on my condition as it progresses. Thanks for everyone's love and concern, it's greatly appreciated.

Why it's NOT a wise thing to eat before you go to bed....

Ok, so last night before I went to bed, I decided I was hungry, and ate a bowl of Mom's Macaroni salad. Before too long, I fell asleep and that's when it all began. I had a doozy of a dream. Tom Sellek showed up at my High School. The whole left side of me, from neck to toe had been cut open for some reason so I was on crutches to heal. Tom Sellek asked me if I needed help, and I said yes. He ended up following me to all my classes, and was a big help. Mom talked to him for a while, then Chrystal came up and said that we needed to go. I got in this ruckety old Ford Bronco, but before I did, Tom told me he was in love with me and wanted to keep in touch. I told him I'd like to and that I'd talk to him when I got back.
Chrystal drove the bronco down Old Bannock Highway and pulled off onto a road that headed up a mountain. She let me out at the bottom of the road just as the police pulled up. They said that they heard there was drug trafficing going on and that anyone who wasn't supposed to be there had to leave. Chrystal stayed behind as the Police thought she had responded to the call when she was actually the one doing the trafficing. By this time, Tome headed back to California, and I couldn't give him my number. I remember feeling deeply hurt, then I saw a party at a nearby house. I knew the people so I went in. The person was a kid that use to bully me at church when I was younger. It turned out that he was house sitting for somebody, and when he saw me there, he tried to attack me, and ripped open my wounds.
I somehow managed to escape, but when the owner came back, I went back in to talk to him, let him know what happened and he basically blew me off. This furiated me so much that I began telling all their guests what had happened and what they've done to me. I then began threatening to sue them for Aggrivated Assault. That's pretty much when I woke up.
Like I said, this is why you don't eat just before bed, and you don't fall asleep with the TV on. When I have these dreams, Dave gets entertained, and tells me to write them down. I have started a dream journal for the more serious and intense ones, but ones that are like this, I thought I'd entertain everyone by sharing them. Hope you all had a good laugh at my little "burp" of insanity. There will probably be more to come.

Another Year

Well, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. It'll be interesting to see how this year goes. This month Dave begins working from home. He'll have an office set up next to our room, and looks forward to being able to work in his Jammies, and eat when he's hungry rather than follow his schedule. Though he expects to see me often, he won't, as far as I'm concerned, he'll be at work.
We're coming up on my 31st Birthday on Monday. I don't have anything special planned, and have decided to break "tradition" and not invite all my friends to TX Roadhouse. This year I think it's gonna be just Dave and I, maybe my family members if they can afford to go. I wanted to visit Dave's family this year, and celebrate my birthday with them since they've never been able to celebrate it with me, but we can't afford to travel up there.
So lately, I've been playing around on E-bay and found a few items I would actually LOVE to have. I placed a bid on a baby doll I had when I was a kid, it's a Love n Touch doll, and so far I'm the only bidder (keeping the fingers crossed) and I'll find out if I won on the 5th. This is a picture of the other item I guess you can say I'm obsessed with, yes, it's a purse, remind you of anyone?????

I would LOVE to have it, but Dave doesn't think I should. Anyway, for those of you who like them, I'm becoming a Gold Canyon Demonstrator this month, again. The requirements to sign up again is to purchase a Demonstrator kit, and would you believe that luck would have it, they're free this month, if I can sell $700 worth of products. Help me out folks, get your friends to order, depending on how much you order, you can get free stuff. Catalog parties are the easiest, let me know if you want to do it and I'll give you details and catalogs.
Gotta run for now, hope you have a happy new year and that it's a good one.